A Call From Brandy

I talked to Brandy today. What a surprise that was to hear from her. We touched base on a lot of things and reminisced about times in SF. The conversation was a bit depressing though. I told her why I left and then in return, she told me about all the people that were kinda going through the path I went down. "This one is in rehab, that one is strung out, no one has heard from so and so, even my boyfriend is going through some shit right now." I told her that I failed SF and that I was disappointed that I left so abruptly. And, that here and there I cry over why I'm here stuck in AZ.

Good things have come to me living here........like I'm back in school, I have a full-time job and still I am being offered more job opportunities, and I'm totally clean. Being a pothead for 14 yrs...........wow - what a transition. But the bad equals out as well - I'm 30 stuck living with Mom, it's boring here, not crazy about the people, and everyone, everything, and every bar looks the damn same. People claim that this place is a melting pot.........BULLSHIT! Wanna see melting pot? Go to NY or SF.......that's where my heart is. I want to take off again. I want to live somewhere else but not sure where. People want me back home in Jersey......the landscapes and my brother are calling me back to CA..........and my curiosity is calling me to Hawaii. But I'm so responsible now and if I leave AZ........what path am I going to take? This sucks. What should I do?



"If at first you don't succeed, try, try, try again. Then use a stunt double."

- Arnold Schwarzenegger


"If at first you don't succeed, remove all evidence that you tried."

- David Brent