Nanette and Me

Nanette and Me
are 2 friennds that are meatnt to be
cant you see?
Always laughing whe we're free
good times when net's with me
yeah....that net and i
always talking about some guy
the one who hurt us and made us cry
i wonder why
theres no pressure
sharing thoughts that are treasured
of boys and pleasure
and especially with food
we always get in that mood
cause it taste so good

Life Update

So it's been a while since I've written anything on this thing. I've had some major writer's block. Anyways......I'm no longer living in Arizona and I'm back in San Francisco. Life is good here except I feel like I'm always in some kind of financial rut. I didn't quite make it as well as I hoped in AZ (probably because I was living in a retirement community with my mom at the age of 30.)

San Francisco........what a wonderful city this is. I still feel like I do not completely belong here 100%. I felt like that in Arizona, too. People always seem to still point out my accent wherever I go. I dunno. I guess you can take the girl outta Jersey but you can never take the Jersey outta the girl.

Anyways....I live by the beach (something I've always dreamed of doing but never pictured the waters to be so cold). I work for UCSF hospital here in San Francisco about 15 minutes away from home. I like my job, but just like any job I've ever had - I still need more money. Lately I've been quite a lil' hermit. I like staying home. Every once in a while I'll hang with friends or my brother. I have a great set of friends here........they are a lot more genuine this time around. And most of them come from the East Coast - go figure. San Francisco is beautiful. My apartment is beautiful. The air smells great. But there is something missing. I'm not sure what it is. I think it's the people. There's just something about them that I can't put a finger on. They are cool and everything but they lack that realism I guess. They cant just tell you how they feel......like everything has to be so damn sugarcoated.

Well.......that's just me venting. Finding every reason to love and hate this place. But overall - life is good. I have my family and friends.......my health....and a roof over my head. The rest of my problems can be solved tonight at the local bar.

The Options

Weighing out the options
Thinking inside
Is the grass really greener
On the other side?
I got nothin' to hide
Got my East Coast Pride
I know in my heart
that I will always survive
What will I lose?
What will I gain?
Trying to see through the eye
Of the storm in my brain
Shall I take that leap
Take that final step
Living outside is what
I haven't done yet
Decisions I make
I don't want to regret
The people I love
I will never forget
It's hard to imagine
How it's like to leave home
Leave my family and friends
Leave my comfort zone
But the freedom to roam
A new home to explore
The next chapter in life
A new land to adore
What am I waiting for?
What are my doubts and fears?
Still weighing the options
Then waste another year
Home will always be there
And so will my pride
And I'll always remember
That God is by my side
The only option is
The move I have to make
And overcome my fears
The chance I have to take

Trying

Cant stand this confusion of where I want to be
Trying to make sense of what's best for me
Trying to find a solution to my confusion
This fusion of dreams
Unsure of what they are
Trying to reach goals
But it seems too far
Brainstorming everyday
Trying to find a way
To be satisfied with the choices I make
But some things are at stake
So scared I'm going to wake
And find my life has passed before my eyes
Sacraficing my dreams for the wrong guys
Trying to do what's right for me
But what feels right is wrong
This life I live feels like
an unfinished song
Trying to make sense of what I say or do
Trying to let go of the past and start anew
A new life that is meant to be
Trying Trying Trying to do whats best for me

Reality of Never

I never thought you would've hurt me like this
Never thought I'd be pissed
Never thought I'd get dissed
by a man that I thought was too good to be true
What am I to do?
Never thought it would be you
to bring me these burning tears
to bring back my lovestruck fears
Broken dreams of the years
And a future together
Possibilites of us forever
Only welcomes the reality of never

Sweet Colombian Dick

All by myself
Nobody’s home
Touchin’ myself all alone
Reminiscing of days
You were in my bed
Giving you head
Dirty words you’ve said
Always made me moan and scream
With your tongue in between
Making me cream
Like a cheap fantasy dream
Of being a cavewoman on Halloween
And taking me back to your cave
Making me your slave
Punishing me when I misbehave
Pulling my hair
Marking the territory you wouldn’t share
You had no shame
You didn’t care
Slamming this pussy everywhere
In every country
In every state
Couldn’t wait
For you to dominate
For you had the key to open my gate
Guarded by twin silver balls
Entering the danger zone
Stretching my walls
Making me sore
Wanting you more
Like a cheap Mexican whore
Throwing my dress over the balcony
Sliding in the back of me
So everyone can watch and see
And wish they had a taste
Of your cum dripping off my face
Like thick white Elmer’s paste
After I swallow and lick
Your thick Colombian dick
I love the way you suck my tits
And play with my clit
In the middle of the day
On a New Mexican highway
Cars passing both ways
In the middle of this deserted land
Fucking naked on the White Sands
You are the Man
You are the Shit
With your sweet Colombian dick
You are the perfect fit

My Colombian King

My body sings
to my Colombian King
waiting for your ring
on the phone
dirty thoughts
when I'm alone
in my bed
thinking of things you said
makes me wanna give you head
and go wild
like a mischevious child
that needs attention
love and affection
may cause an errection
and make my pussy wet
by cause and effect
still the best
I ever had
you drive me mad
by the thought of your touch
makes me want you so much
so much that it hurts
be wearing the short skirts
so I can be spanked
like a dirty skank
waiting to explode and explore
for you I still adore
like a wet dream
thats makes me scream
til' I cream
always and forever
Your Philippine Queen

Beautiful Soul

Beautiful Soul
Spirit so free
Natural extasy
that comes from
the beauty
within your heart
your mind
So hard to find
a spirit so kind
filled with dignity
positivity
sensitivity
that gravitates others
to your aura
your light
that shines so bright
like God's grace
in your angelic face
There is no place
where I can find
trust in a friend
to be there til' the end
This message I send
with love
and honesty
loyalty and heart
Close or far apart
I separate you from the rest
You bring out the best
For in your presence
I'm truly Blessed