Crush of the Week - the Artist
I talked to Phil two nights ago. God - he has such an amazing voice. He's an architect and and artist.........gotta love the arts, man. I remember him showing me a few pics of what he did to some red falling leaves. He walked by some trees in the city and saw that a lot of the leaves fell to the ground. He took the red, purple, and green leaves and made an amazing sculpture design on the sidewalk. It branched out in all different directions as if they were veins coming from the trees themselves. It also had a feminine touch to it as if it were mimicking the grace of a women. He is so creative. I only wonder if he is creative in the bedroom and can master the art of love making.
Anyways.....we talked for a few hours about New York, New Jersey, Mississippi.......traveling to Turkey, my visit to Israel........smokey toilet bowls and shitting on railroad tracks. People have such different personalities when you talk to them on the phone than chatting with them on the net. Phil and I have been chatting for quite some time now and that was the first time I've ever heard his voice. Of course he had to be from NY. Everyone I'm attracted to is from the East. Makes me rethink (AGAIN) what I'm doing out here. But I just so scared that if I move back home I'll settle down and get married (as if that's such a horrible thing to do!)
I think in my past life time I was a Muslim that had multiple spouses. I had to be! I wish that I can have several husbands........and a couple of female concubines. That way I can have one of each.........the artist......the macho man.....the intellectual.......the comedian........the dreamer........the sports finatic.......a few europeans.....the bad boy.......and the good boy......and whatever else charms me.
I love men so much that it brings me back to square one..........hopeless romantic. The obsession of falling and being in love but being to picky to stick around. I'm definitely not marriage material unless I can have several of them.
Anyways......Phil is sending me a print........maybe even an original. I love his work. Because of him........whenever I see colored leaves on the ground I think of him. He is definitely my crush of the week!
"What I am seeking is not the real and not the unreal but rather the unconscious, the mystery of the instinctive in the human race."
- Robert Motherwell
Anyways.....we talked for a few hours about New York, New Jersey, Mississippi.......traveling to Turkey, my visit to Israel........smokey toilet bowls and shitting on railroad tracks. People have such different personalities when you talk to them on the phone than chatting with them on the net. Phil and I have been chatting for quite some time now and that was the first time I've ever heard his voice. Of course he had to be from NY. Everyone I'm attracted to is from the East. Makes me rethink (AGAIN) what I'm doing out here. But I just so scared that if I move back home I'll settle down and get married (as if that's such a horrible thing to do!)
I think in my past life time I was a Muslim that had multiple spouses. I had to be! I wish that I can have several husbands........and a couple of female concubines. That way I can have one of each.........the artist......the macho man.....the intellectual.......the comedian........the dreamer........the sports finatic.......a few europeans.....the bad boy.......and the good boy......and whatever else charms me.
I love men so much that it brings me back to square one..........hopeless romantic. The obsession of falling and being in love but being to picky to stick around. I'm definitely not marriage material unless I can have several of them.
Anyways......Phil is sending me a print........maybe even an original. I love his work. Because of him........whenever I see colored leaves on the ground I think of him. He is definitely my crush of the week!
"What I am seeking is not the real and not the unreal but rather the unconscious, the mystery of the instinctive in the human race."
- Robert Motherwell
posted by Heidi at 11:30 AM
1 Comments:
I hear you about the marriage & moving back home situation. I've been overseas for like 4 years, and I've just moved back home, which is outside of Sydney, Australia. I'm 27, everyone else is hooking up, buying property, having babies. I can't even figure out what i want to do work wise with my life. Everyones being BORING! The longer you stay away the harder it is to go back...
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