Naughty Girl

Hey Daddy.......
I've been a bad bad girl
I need to be punished
Make me rock your world
I feel naughty
Wanna cum and play
Hear the dirty words
I want to say
I'm begging and begging
Oh Daddy please!
Punish me now
I'm on my knees
Spank me hard
And make me scream
Daddy! Daddy!
Make me cream!
Bend me over
And spank my butt
This naughty girl
Deserves a fuck



"There she lusted after her lovers whose genitals were like those of donkeys and whose emissions were like those of horses."

- Ezekiel 23:20

Two Souls Apart

Two different worlds
Two souls apart
Will your key
Unlock my heart?
Is this real
Or fantasy
Is this dream
meant to be?
The words you say
Sound of your voice
Are we separated
By fate or choice?
Passionate kisses
A hundred smiles
Two souls apart
Three thousand miles.



"Distance is just a test to see how far love can travel."

- Anonymous

Thoughts of You

Thoughts of you run through my mind
I imagine where you are
Is it possible for me to love
Someone who lives so far?

I dream of you caressing me
From my head down to my toe
Is Cupid playing tricks on me
By drawing back his bow?

It's silly to think I feel this way
For a man I met online
But things happen for a reason
Is fate showing a sign?

For now I'll leave it in fate's hands
'Cause things were meant to be
And hopefully the day will come
Where you will be with me.



"At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet."

- Plato

A Fart

A fart can be quiet
A fart can be loud
Some leave a powerful
Poisonous cloud.
A fart can be short
Or a fart can be long
Some farts are known
To sound like a song. (Jay)
Some farts don't smell
While others are vile
A fart may pass quickly
Or linger a while.
A fart can create
A most curious medley
A fart can be harmless
Or silent.....but deadly. (Rofel)
A fart can occur
In a number of places
With strange looks
On everyone's faces.
From IKEA stores (Candice)
To small elevators
A fart will find us
Sooner or later.
So be not afraid
Of the invisible gas
For always remember
It comes from an ass.




Dedicated to my dear farting friends.

The Search

"You are a young soul..........searching."

- Svguyca


Am I searching? I think we all are to a certain extent. I guess my fear is that I am searching in the wrong direction. I have dreams and goals.......but at the same time haunted by the uncertainty of the outcomes. I think I can make it on my own. I mean - I've come this far. I just need to stay focused.........still have the world to explore.......life to experience.......and chapters to complete.


I'm not sure what I'm searching for
I don't think I'll ever know
Just trying to walk my path
Wherever that may go
So many souls - so many faiths
To each is their own
Whichever turn my life will take
I know I'm not alone
I'm not here to find myself
I'd rather take life as it comes
Learn lessons from experience
Until my days are done.


"Let each choose their Destiny, that they shall know their fate."

- Erich, circa
1996 AD

What Happened After Cain?

OK.......I was just thinking.......Adam and Eve, right?.......Well they were like the first 2 people God supposedly made.........and then shit happened when Eve gave Adam the apple and blah blah blah.........then they made 2 babies - Cain and Abel........then Cain was in a bad mood and kills his brother and all that...............but what I was wondering......."If Adam and Eve were the first people God created and now all there is left is Cain........What happened after Cain? Seriously - think about it........Adam, Eve, Cain, Abel's dead..........who else was left? How did man reproduce?"

Also.......if the world was created in a week.........whatever happened to the dinosaurs?!!?? Didn't they live before man? Something's not right here. Shit - no wonder my CCD teachers hated me.

I do believe in evolution.........but the whole ape thing kinda freaks me out. But, now that I think about it - I know a handful of people who do look kinda like monkeys, man........one of them is my friend.......another one is our president. Don't you think Bush looks like a monkey???



Anyways........you guys are boring. I'm gonna get another glass of wine!



"I will plague your whole country with frogs."

- Exodus 8:2

Trip and Fall

I'm not sure why I'm picky
And why my guard is high
So much love inside my heart
But can't find that special guy
I think 'cause I'm not looking
That's really not my game
Or maybe it's the fear
Of experiencing the pain
That pain of giving my heart
And surrendering my soul
But only find discomfort
In love that has gone cold
But despite my heart's failures
I'm still a fool in love
Being romanced and wine & dined
Is all that I think of
A hopeless romantic is what I am
But I have to break this wall
And hope that love will pick me up
Once it makes me trip and fall.


"Laugh like you're never gonna stop. Dance like nobody's watchin'. Love like it's never gonna hurt."

- Heidi Alperez


PS- I need a boyfriend...........PMSing sucks!

Working Out Sucks!

I just got back from the gym. Damn, I'm so out of shape and have no balance whatsoever. Everyone keeps stressing on the benefits of working out, but personally I think WORKING OUT SUCKS! I joined the gym at my school and I do it for a grade so I HAVE to go. It's a good way for me not to quit. I do admit I feel good after I work out but just the whole "motivation" thing is the hardest part. Today one of the cute instructors told me that Rule #3 was......"If you stop going to 3 consecutive classes in a row - most likely you will quit." Dude - that is so true!!!! Anyways......I guess everything pays off in the end.

Gotta work out
Gotta stay fit
Gained lil' weight
And I feel like shit
Gotta look sexy
Gotta look cool
No pain - No gain
That is the rule
Gotta do my crunches
Gotta work my abs
No love handles
No more flabs
Gotta look good
Gotta turn heads
"Me love them long time"
When I ride them in bed


"If at first you don't succeed, try, try, again. Then give up. No use being a damned fool about it."

- W.C. Fields

Trippy Thought

TRIPPY THOUGHT OF THE DAY

"One day I'd like to reincarnate and run a nightclub in Mars."

- Heidi Alperez

Different Kind of Love

Been way too long
Much time has past
No longer regretting
Why things didn't last
So far away
Many miles apart
But yet so close
Inside my heart
You will always be
My number one
I'll never forget
The things we've done
But can never go back
To the way things were
We'd get a divorce
I know for sure
Too much has changed
But still my best friend
Just a different kind of love
That will never end


Spoke to Rich Rich today. What a weird but funny conversation THAT was. He told me about his trip to Mexico, and how he thought about me a lot. We spoke about the messages I left and the mix up with the flowers. We both felt like asses, but laughed it off a lot (and not even in a fake way). Rich is great. I can understand why things lasted so long. But, like everything else in life......things change - but not necessarily in a bad way. Like I said......it's a "different kind of love". I'm truly happy at the way things worked out between us...........Truly Happy.



"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything."

- Muhammad Ali

Spun

Watching some flicks on a Saturday night
Reflecting on the days I was high as a kite
Saw a trippy movie I believe is called "Spun"
Reminded me of days rollin' under the sun
SF clubs and after parties at the Haight
Pretty white lines on a lil' silver plate
Blazin' Cali bud while cruising in my car
Haven't slept in days 'cause I was a rockstar
Dancing drum circles at Golden Gate Park
Hooking up with Tina before it gets dark
Chillin' with my letter friends E, G, and K
Hanging with those buddies gets me wired all day
That world was never ending almost like a big dream
But when I came down I just wanted to scream
Seeing shadow people was a living nightmare
Crashing down hard being paranoid and scared
Slurring my speech and crying over life
Many shattered dreams being cut by a knife
Always strung out and living like a bum
Promising myself that these days are fuckin' done
So now I'm in the desert going back to school
Learning from experience and trying to stay cool.



"It's hard to be funny when you're coming off of drugs."

- Rodney Dangerfield

Physician-Assisted Suicide: Ethical or Unethical?

I had to write a "simple paragraph" (HA!HA!HA!) on the following questions below:

Do you believe physician assisted suicide is ethical?
Why or why not?
Would your answer depend on whether the patient was related to you?
Why or why not?

(I'm not a very good "simple paragraph" writer. Plus, the topic of assisted suicide kinda sparked some kinda interest.)



Physician Assisted Suicide: Ethical or Unethical?

Physician-assisted suicide (PAS) generally refers to a practice in which the physician provides a patient with a lethal dose of medication, upon the patient’s request, which the patient intends to use to end his or her own life.

Physician-assisted suicide is a controversial issue that continues to be debated. Though society that has a strong interest in preserving life, that interest lessens when a person is terminally ill and has a strong desire to end life. I can not give a definite answer to whether or not I believe PAS is ethical or unethical. I have given this topic heavy thought, researched the pros and cons, surveyed more than 15 people (religious and non-religious) and formed only one statement: PAS should be allowed depending on the situation. For instance, if a patient is young and generally healthy but suffers depression and wishes to end their life, then I believe that PAS is unethical since there are alternatives such as clinics, counseling, and prescriptions to help resolve their suffering. But if the patient is 75 years old, terminally ill, given an indefinite length of time to live, and the only alternative is suffering, then I believe that PAS would be ethical.

Several people I have surveyed have argued that assisted suicide is morally wrong because it contradicts their religious beliefs and secular traditions against taking human life. Furthermore, PAS runs directly counter to the traditional duty of the physician to preserve life. For instance, the Hippocratic Oath states, “I will not administer poison to anyone where asked”, and “Be of benefit, or at least do no harm.” Others have argued that PAS is ethical because it is a rational choice for a person who is choosing to die to escape unbearable suffering. Furthermore, the physician’s duty to alleviate suffering may, at times, justify the act of providing assistance with suicide. These arguments rely a great deal on the notion of individual independence and the right of competent people to choose for themselves the course of their life, including how it will end.

If a patient was related to me and wanted a physician-assisted suicide, I would naturally be disappointed and perhaps even suggest alternatives. But if they were persistent and I understood their situation, then I would have to support their decision. But then again…….I have never been faced with this situation. This also is a question that I can not give a definite answer.



QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"Your death will be peaceful and not at the hands of an assassin."

- Mexican fortune telling card

Another Boring Blog

Well.......I went to my interview today with my deformed face. I think I got the job.....as a matter of fact I'm 95% positive I got the job. But why am I not excited??!? I guess because working at Walgreens at the age of 30 is not something I pictured myself doing. Being in school at the age of 30 wasn't exactly my plan either. Well.....I guess anything is better than retail. Night shifts as a Pharmacist Technician.......Hmmmm.....well - I'm not going to be working there for a long time. I just needed something for now until I become a CNA.

So now I'm taking a break from math homework. If Rich lived nearby I'd pay him to do my homework. Guys are so good at math. I like subjects where you can bullshit the answers......probably cuz I'm so good at talking shit.

Well.......my coffee ice cream is calling me........again. God - I love ice cream!

That's the conclusion to another boring blog by Heidi Alperez.


"Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away."

- Philip K. Dick

(HA! HA! HA! Phil Dick.....
...Phil PUSSY sounds better!)

Chipmunk Cheek

I feel so ugly right now. One half of my face is deformed........kinda looks like a giant Chipmunk Cheek. There's no way I'm going to school looking like this......let alone the interview I have to show up to tomorrow morning. At first I thought about cancelling, but I think it would look better on me if I showed up looking all deformed (shows my dedication).

I'm debating whether to go to the gym tonight or not. Lately I've been having this obsession for working out. I want to look good but I have no one to look good for. I'm not crazy about AZ boys......I still think East Coast boys are the best in the world. But then again......I'm so picky......stuck up even.......I don't give anyone a chance out here.

The girls think I need to get laid. But, after not having sex for a while.......I kinda got used to it. Well......that's what toys are for, right?!? I was just watching Real Sex on HBO last night. They had this thing on Swingers. Pretty weird nasty looking people those swingers. Of course it takes place in middle America somewhere. It's weird.......I can understand why people swing.......I can understand the concept..........they all agree that it is better than cheating and they all seem pretty content doing it. But the people who love to swing are usually thick and not so attractive. I dunno if I'd ever swing. It's really not my forte. Anyways............it was just a thought.

Screw working out tonight. As a matter of fact........while I'm ugly.......I might as well indulge in some ice cream. That usually does the trick.



"Eat, drink and be merry for tomorrow you may contract a horrible skin disease."

-Edmund Blackadder

(In my case......a horrible deformed chipmunk cheek!)

Just drink 2 tequila shots

Yeah.........so I went to Mexico. Woke up at 4:30AM left the house at 6:15 to drive to my doom. This was the 1st time I was driving to Mexico and not looking forward to it. Saw my cute dentist, Dr. Erick, and right away he stuck needles in my mouth. I had 2 fillings and my teeth whitened by him. Then he referred me to an oral surgeon......now that sucked! Dr. Eduardo stabbed my mouth with anesthesia and pulled out my wisdom tooth. Felt like he was ripping my mouth open.......everytime I opened my eyes......2 Mexican faces were inches close from my face staring at my deformed mouth. All I can see are Mexican eyes.........all I can hear are Mexican words. (Good thing they were cute - that would've sucked to have an ugly dentist and assistant with nasty teeth.) But still........I couldn't look at them. When they finally pulled my tooth.......I asked them if I could look at that sucker. I should've asked them if I could keep it as a souvenir.........ya know - walk around and wear it around my neck or something. (Kinda what the ancient Mayans used to do with the bones of the people they conquered) LOL When I asked them.......so what should I take for the pain?.......They responded......."Oh...just drink 2 tequila shots - then you'll be ok." (Not really gonna hear that kinda advice from an American dentist!)

So......now I'm in excrutiating pain......I'm swollen.......I bit the shit out of my inner cheek.......and worst of all......the pain was worse than I anticipated.

Well.......the most exciting thing about my day - I tried a "Prickly Pear Cactus" shake today. Pretty exciting, huh?

Oh............and on Valentine's Day..........I got flowers from "Rich". How sweet......my ex thought about me after all. (NOT!) After leaving 2 messages on Rich's cell and writing this detailed "remember when we used to do this and that" e-mail.......I find out later that it's from another Rich. (Someone more thoughtful and sweet - Oh......and loves to cook)

By the way.........Rich - if you are reading this......thanks again for the flowers and reassuring me that there are still thoughtful, sweet, handsome good men out there in the world. Too bad you are 3000 miles away.



"Maybe it's not as bad as you imagine. The sun will come up tomorrow, and you can make it if you try..."

-Mick Farren

Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day 2005.........I really need to get laid. It's been so long. I love being single but days like this I really need to be cuddled. Here I am wasting my day on math homework and trying to figure out how to post my pic on this damn thing. Tomorrow I'm going to get my wisdom teeth pulled. I'm so nervous. This is going to be a bad week for me......I know it.

Been thinking about how I don't think about my ex anymore. It's been 3 yrs since we broke up and I was with him for 6 yrs. That's a chunk of my life and emotions. I think I'm finally over him. Of course if he told me he had a gf I'd probably be really sad. It's a case of wanting to have your cake and eating it too.

Oh well.........it wasn't meant to be. Besides, I like being single. My vagina, on the other hand, thinks otherwise.



"Love is the answer, but while you are waiting for the answer, sex raises some pretty good questions."

-Woody Allen

I'm a new blogspot

Sunday......beginning of a new week. I'm dreading this week because this Tuesday I will be getting my wisdom teeth pulled.......in Mexico. Why Oh Why didn't I do this when I was younger? Anyways.....Valentine's is coming up and I'm a lil' sad. This holiday mocks single people. Can't wait til' it's over. In the meantime I'll continue to work out and "try" to stay fit. Why does beauty have to be so torturous??!!?

Well......I'm in a whining mood today. Bah Humbug!


"One of humanity's greatest complaints is about how people complain..."

-Mick Farren