The Options

Weighing out the options
Thinking inside
Is the grass really greener
On the other side?
I got nothin' to hide
Got my East Coast Pride
I know in my heart
that I will always survive
What will I lose?
What will I gain?
Trying to see through the eye
Of the storm in my brain
Shall I take that leap
Take that final step
Living outside is what
I haven't done yet
Decisions I make
I don't want to regret
The people I love
I will never forget
It's hard to imagine
How it's like to leave home
Leave my family and friends
Leave my comfort zone
But the freedom to roam
A new home to explore
The next chapter in life
A new land to adore
What am I waiting for?
What are my doubts and fears?
Still weighing the options
Then waste another year
Home will always be there
And so will my pride
And I'll always remember
That God is by my side
The only option is
The move I have to make
And overcome my fears
The chance I have to take

Trying

Cant stand this confusion of where I want to be
Trying to make sense of what's best for me
Trying to find a solution to my confusion
This fusion of dreams
Unsure of what they are
Trying to reach goals
But it seems too far
Brainstorming everyday
Trying to find a way
To be satisfied with the choices I make
But some things are at stake
So scared I'm going to wake
And find my life has passed before my eyes
Sacraficing my dreams for the wrong guys
Trying to do what's right for me
But what feels right is wrong
This life I live feels like
an unfinished song
Trying to make sense of what I say or do
Trying to let go of the past and start anew
A new life that is meant to be
Trying Trying Trying to do whats best for me